Plans for the Future... & The New Me

After getting accepted into Pace University, I am deciding to take a vacation to a completely different country and different continent. I have never been to this side of the world, but I have been outside the States before. Going to a place where there's no family members in that country and no friends in that area is quite daring, but I am taking a risk. I am willing to take a leap of faith.

As I go to this country, I will be vlogging my experience and hopefully blogging as well. I won't say just yet where I will be going until I buy my plane ticket or until the day I leave. I will be as secretive as possible.

Speaking of traveling this summer, I am hoping to attend Gov Ball in June, but I am not sure yet. I don't want to take too many days off because I just started working at my new job and it's going to be two months on the 21st. I don't even have vacation days that are paid yet.

I want to do many things, start my YouTube Channel again, start my podcast, collaborate with my sister, etc. I have all these amazing ideas, but I can't execute them. My sleep schedule is not the same. I sleep during the day and wake up before sundown. Work has really affected my social life and my daily life to the point where I just live to work, not working to live. Work is my number one priority and relaxing is just not something on my list. Self-care self-love doesn't exist to me. It's gone. It ran away from me and my vocabulary. I lost weight from Ramadan, but I still feel big and look big too. I'm just disgusted at what I see in the mirror to the point where I don't even want to look at myself. I don't want to see myself in photos, videos, nothing. I would kill to look like my high school self again. I miss her. I miss her body. I miss her long hair. But what I missed the most was the innocence.